Death an inevitable thing everyone will face someday.
Recently, on my way to work..funeral wakes are like everywhere. So creepy.
Which somehow reminds me of my beloved grandparents.
Ppl dont quite appreciate each other when they are alive.
It is when someone dies and suddenly u feel tht the person u know is not tht any longer.
It's somehow doesnt seem real at all.
My mum used to purchase her mobile phones from this guy near my shop.
There was this cheery guy with a super bright red beng-ish looking hair mending the shop.
Mum like to joke with him and then one fine day, i was told tht he died in a bike accident.
I just cldnt believe it. It almost seemed like a dream. Took everyone a long long while to digest tht news.
Then my secondary sch band senior who killed herself sometime ago. Although not on familiar terms but I took tht news in tht same manner. Somehow hard to describe that feeling, it's almost like u r living in denial. The news just somehow bounce off ur face and come back again.
And you'll just stop and think abt what u've just heard and time just stop at that point of time.
Just wondering am I the only one who feels like tht or something.

Back to reality..
I am currently mugging away but mum still need me at work. Sometimes I just feel so tired being the eldest in my family. I really want to study but somehow I need to work too. Mum thinks tht she set up a bright path for me- to take over her business.
Seriously..I think I would like to make my own choices.. but nobody seems to care abt my choice.
Today somehow during work i think i strain my right leg and it's aching like mad... Job hazard. This few days I would need to stay up til quite late to replace my lost time of studying. Was thinking of ways to ultilise my time..One of it was to record my lectures and playing it while i am working(of cos not loudly,using mp3 or something) but then again i am in a service line and i need to communicate with my customers. The only thing i can do is to recall my facts..doing a revision in my head but was almost tempted to pull up my notes when i cant recall. ARGHHH....